直到今天深夜，我躺在床上思来想去。

Late one night, I lay awake thinking.

他思来想去了一个小时，最终还是徒劳，于是他拨通了她的电话。

After about an hour of trying to remember to no avail, he got on the telephone and gave her a call.

我在公园柳树旁的长凳坐下来，思来想去地回想着拉希姆可汗挂电话之前最后说的那些话。

I sat on a park bench near a willow tree. I thought about something Rahim Khan said just before he hung up, almost as an after thought. _There is a way to be good again_.